The Daily Open Minded Writer

Not even ten days into the new year, I had already failed my first goal, which was to write three times a week, but here we are, so now we will try to rewrite the future and create good habits moving forward. As I sit here on the precipice of yet another circle around the sun, I have taken significant stock in looking at myself and my habits and tendencies, where I need to really make some significant changes, and where I need to continue down the same path because they are either leading to some horrible consequences or have the potential to build something great in the future.

This all came about when I started with a goal this year of reading 52 books because I needed something outside of work and school to really help focus my mental processes and actions to make them more deliberate and less erratic. The idea started with my desire to be more proactive instead of always being reactive to whatever crisis or situation occurs. I think the most common example of this that comes to mind is every six months, I go through a weigh-in for work and have to meet specific body fat percentages or weight based on my height and whatnot, and instead of eating right or hitting the gym like I should be I constantly make excuses to myself time after time and then end up starving myself for the two weeks leading up to it and I am just a miserable person when this could have all be avoided in the first place. All of this being said is what led me to read my first book, Atomic Habits and Dopamine Nation, shortly thereafter ( I am 4 books deep into my goal of 52), and these combined were very, and I mean very eye-opening for me. I think one of the biggest things in learning a habit is that we will gravitate to the most straightforward thing possible for us, which, in my case, has been sitting on my butt watching TV and not doing much else. I think a lot of that desire comes from the fact my life has been so much eat, breath, sleep, work, school, cleaning the house, and nothing else for close to two years now, and I often find myself unsure of what to do with my self when I have any form of free time.

With the above all being said, I have invested in this (blogging or journaling?) for my mental health, and I am gonna really put the effort into this and develop this as much as possible. I am not entirely sure what that long-term goal is or where I will end up, but I do know that I plan to make this something of my own where I can freely express my feelings and thoughts without the fear of reprisal. If I take the same days, I hit the gym and focus on my mental development as well, this will help with consistency. I just know the hard part is when I have to have days where I sit here and stare at this damn screen all day. The goal here is not to be ripped or stacked; just get back into lifting and powerlifting where my passion was because it’s just fun. I wish I had the time before I could go back into CrossFit because I love going to competitions. I also think I really need to find my spice of life again or maybe what is fun now for me because all I have done for two long years is work and school, nothing more, and I really need to find reasons to smile and laugh and enjoy.