The Daily Open Minded Writer

I have been trying to figure out where I want to take this blog, how personal I want to get, and just find a direction that flows and makes sense. Honestly, I still don’t have one because while I do have interests in my life, I really don’t like the idea of just boxing myself into one specific topic or idea, primarily because I have so many thoughts running through my head all day. I used to think that I could only write if I had a profound thought or feeling on something or on a particular topic, then it kind of transformed into just what I was doing from day to day or what specific thought crossed my mind on that particular day now I have wrote a bunch of posts that I still need to really edit and post (if I decide and end up doing it due to them being so deep and raw) but I keep going back to just how personal and detailed I want to write and post because when I started this whole adventure I really wanted to keep things vague as possible. After all, the thought of someone finding this and linking it back to me kind of scared the living daylights out of me. Still, the more I write, the more I realize that it’s damn near impossible to filter out details of my life without having context or meaning behind them. When I do, I can’t ever really convey the emotion, feeling, and understanding.  I am trying to be a little more open with my life, so we will see how this goes as time progresses. I think, from here, I am going to stop trying to force this to go one way or another and just let the words flow as they will.  I think the days of trying to keep looking for a profound idea or concept to write about are done. If I can come up with one fantastic idea, or I can just write about whatever is on my mind at that time, because let’s be honest, almost no one can have constant, profound thoughts or ideas that they can deeply explore, process, and then write new views or concepts regarding that topic. I can how ever explore my thoughts, ideas, and feelings at any given time and just go from there and let this blog shape it self or maybe never even have a shape at all because I am not writing to make money or trying to persuade anyone to any of the multitude of polar topics one way or another because well I don’t want too for one and two I don’t really have any hill that I am willing to die on like that. I mean, I am sure there will come a day when I make a statement someone doesn’t like or feels is unjust. Still, I plan to cross that bridge when it comes, but the goal is to never offend anyone. I know that the more I write, the higher the likelihood that this will happen, no matter how careful I am to not ruffle anyone’s feathers. I also think that the whole point of blogging, and of writing in general, is the expression of feelings, ideals, and emotions. When you start to say these things out loud, you are bound to encounter differences of opinion, and that concept in and of itself is so beautiful because we have the freedom of expression. We all have our own voice, no matter what, and we don’t have to agree with everyone. Honestly, I highly doubt everyone will agree with me. It could be as simple as them feeling it’s wrong. I choose to ride a motorcycle because of the danger and the possibility of being nothing more than a total street squid, causing chaos on the road, or because they don’t like the noise they make. I am totally okay with that because I love to ride, and nothing would change my mind about how it feels or how much joy it brings to my life. Back to the primary topic at hand, though, I think I really need to stop trying to box myself in to one idea or concept for this and just let things develop as they may. If I end up on one central idea or thought that ends up carving out how this blog should look then I am just going to go with it and if nothing happens and its just a bunch of jumbled thoughts and what happened to me recently well then why does it matter because I am not doing this for anyone but myself and my mental health and expression of my thoughts or feelings on something that I happen to hear or read that day. So here is to a new start and freedom to write how I please, and stopping myself from trying to uphold these crazy ideals of every post needs to be perfect or needs to be so long or just fit into this box of what is right and not what is wrong (even though I am not entirely sure what wrong looks like in this world). Even after all the research I have done and reading about blogging and how-tos, or beginner forums, nothing really explains how to write, what to write, or what is good vs. what is bad. Ironically, most is really just focused on making money from it, and that, for me, in this context, is the least of my concerns. However, I would like to spruce up the blog a bit, make it more interesting to look at, and maybe make it a little more personalized. I just haven’t figured out how to make that happen yet because all the changes or “plugins” cost money. I have a hard time paying for or upgrading, and I end up paying even more each year to keep this blog. Gone are the days of Xanga and others like it, which were fun, free, and just about expressing your feelings and what was going through your head at that time. The good news is we are here now. I plan to make the very best of it and develop this as much as I can, and just let things take their own shape and form naturally. If anyone has any suggestions or ideas, please feel free to share them with me, and I will do my best to accommodate.